Sunday, August 19, 2012

One of those emo posts. You know... the ones where you realize you've been duped?

EDIT (September 10, 2012)
The previous drama posted below is no longer an issue. Not because I cut the person out of my life... but because I have forgiven them. I realize that this person has lead a life much different than mine, and much different than most people, really. The way they were raised, the experiences they went through... all culminated to make them a person that isn't always quite aware of their overly-advantageous and indiscriminate behavior. It is extremely hard for this person to look past their misfortunes at their fortunes, and even more harder for them to truly appreciate the kindness done to them and on their behalf, because by acknowledging the kindness, they must also acknowledge their own shortcomings as a person, and must admit that they were unable to provide for themselves what somebody else is providing for them. I'm not saying this behavior is entirely right... but I understand it. And I also understand that no two meetings are a coincidence. There is a reason why I'm in this person's life and vice-versa. There is something to be learned, and something to be grown, from either side. At the risk of sounding cliche, I do believe that God is using me... and for now, I'm okay with that.

I have a confession.

When my heartstrings are pulled by the blight of another person's misfortunes, I can't help myself... I have to help them. Especially if that person is a friend. I become blind to their needs and do not realize I am being taken advantage of, until it's too late...

I gave this person a new bag, gave them a couple of my shirts that were too small for me, even bought them new shoes just a few days ago. I have bought them several meals, and driven them around for miles, and miles. I've helped them with numerous projects, and been there through their emotional times...

Only to have them spew bad words about me behind my back.


But I should have known... this same person lives rent free in her boyfriend's mom's house. This woman not only gave the girl a place to live, but also gives her extra spending money, bus money, and phone money, amongst other things. She has no legal or blood ties to the girl, but takes care of her. And the only thing the girl can do is complain about having to take care of the woman's house, and having to abide by the woman's house rules.

Now, if this person can say all of that about the woman that feeds, houses, and essentially clothes her (through the extra money that is given to her)... then what is stopping this person from having ill feelings towards me?

It really, really hurts.

I absolutely HATE drama in my own life, and cannot believe the turns this relationship has taken. I need to remember who my REAL friends are and turn to them.

Thursday, August 09, 2012

LOVE GLOW update & Gangnam Style!

I've been SUPER busy working on pre-production for my short film LOVE GLOW. So far we have our actors locked, and most of crew locked (just need a couple extra people). We also have our locations set, some extra equipment for shooting, and ingredients for our homemade goo (like 1 gallon of Elmer's School Glue, borax, food coloring, and glow in the dark paint!)

Tomorrow will be a busy and full day with my Media Business & Law copyright presentation, running to a costume shop for some extra special effects makeup, and possibly a wig and fake facial hair... then some goo making, and taking my DP to our locations to do some test shots and figure out a shot list.

Dylan Nelson during rehearsals. He plays Matt in the film LOVE GLOW.

Early tonight we had a second rehearsal with our actors and also did some test shots, and I really feel like things are coming along great! I'm super excited to start filming on Wednesday! :)

As a matter of fact... I think we need to celebrate... GANGNAM STYLE (thanks Psy for your awesomeness). If you haven't seen this video yet, you should watch it! And celebrate as the days draw nearer for me to film LOVE GLOW. ;)

"Gangnam Style" by PSY

As a side note, I would like to add something about the awesome & amazingness that is viral media and the Internet...

Not even a full month ago, when I would Google search "PSY" on the Internet, intending to get to Psy's Wikipedia page... or ANY information about the South Korean entertainer... I would get nothing. Just typing "Psy" alone would get me Psychology or some other sort of Psy... I would have to type "Psy Korean" or "Psy Korean Singer" or "Psy Korean Entertainer" etc...

Picture of Psy in the MV "Gangnam Style" (photo from

But NOW when I type just "Psy" alone? I get PSY, the South Korean entertainer. And I KNOW it's because of his music video GANGNAM STYLE going crazy viral in less than a month. I've been watching GANGNAM STYLE since it was first uploaded in July, and holy cow... the views just keep growing! It's really exciting~ and the song is addicting! Keep sharing it, guys! ;)

Oppan Gangnam Style!~


Thursday, August 02, 2012

LOVE GLOW @ KICKSTARTER! [Please DONATE to my short film so that I can make this movie happen!]

Hey guys! My upcoming short film LOVE GLOW has a Kickstarter page now!

This is an all-or-nothing campaign which means... if I don't reach my goal, I get nothing! In order to get this film made, I need $2,000 and any and all amounts are helpful and greatly appreciated! Even if you are unable to donate, please "LIKE" and "SHARE" and spread the word about this project!

To donate, please visit the LOVE GLOW Kickstarter page.

Thank you all SO MUCH for your continuing support! :) <--- Click right here! ;)

Wednesday, August 01, 2012


HEY GUYS, WE'RE GOING TO TEST A SILLY PUTTY RECIPE for my upcoming short film LOVE GLOW! Tune in to our LIVE STREAM! :3

Screenshots and video link will be posted here after we're done!


Here's the video and description! Enjoy! :)

[NOTE: If you're unable to watch the video above, just visit the Kondoot Live Stream page for the silly putty video!]

So, me and a member of my crew experimented with homemade silly putty/gack/slime/goo for my upcoming short film LOVE GLOW.

In LOVE GLOW, one of the characters, Rick, turns into a pile of goo... so you know we had to do some goo-making tests! ;)

We weren't able to test the glow in the dark properties in this live stream because there was too much light in the room, but we're going to find a darker room to test it out later. ;)

For more information about LOVE GLOW, visit the Facebook page at

And don't forget to check out the official LOVE GLOW project page at

And of course, Esther's personal webpage and blog at

And for the silly putty/gack/slime/goo recipe, go to


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